patience needed, instantly

Some days life can just seem so disoriented. The people that one usually finds shelter in seem incompetent to do the job sometimes.Parents, friends, the person you love the most are- insufficient.

There is too much happening in my head.

Ha! I read that sentence again. It sounded very melodramatic. We all have this weird misconception that what happens to us, matters to anyone outside of our selves. Wake up! Smell the coffee! No one gives a damn honestly. Sad, I know, but it is true.

I am getting increasingly impatient with the world…..with myself. There is no place for the idealism that has bred in my head. And now it is neither dying, nor letting me live in peace with the compromises I make.

I am worried. I fear the infestation this is causing in me. I hope this is a case of benign cancer.

What a mockery it will be to die because of one’s priniciples?