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September 5, 2012

I got lost… the calendar full… the future empty. Where was I? The best comes to those who wait? I waited and just got lost. And I wish I could say it was as simple as that.

The music lingers to remind of how far I have come from who I wanted to be. It is more like a death knell, the dong of the bell just after the noose is cast around your neck and just before you can finish saying goodbye to those who mattered. Just just before you lose the last foothold on life and hang out like a sheet to dry. Immaterial and dead.

No, getting lost is tough. Specially when you are careless. Like every breath, every thought a reminder that you are trying to get lost. I would not feel it so much, perhaps, had I been gone away and forever from this. But goddamit, the words, they shall save me always.

The withered, broken, splintered dead of the night can be as stealthy as it wishes but the mind has its own scores to settle. And while the body lies on the hard bed, recounting the days of glory and of failure, why forget failure, in line with the mess of the mind, taut and awake, the soul pleads, begs relentlessly for shame to come and the guilt to set in. But we are shameless. We are. The guilt has no place. It will always be a matter of choice. And so we turn the other side and think our life through, once more.

Sometimes, the background scores just don’t match life. Or is it always.

6 Comments leave one →
  1. September 5, 2012 21:23

    Posted a comment once but don’t know where it went. So I’ll try to recreate it to the best of my memory. Wow! Is that even enough coming from me? Just know that we wait, with open inboxes, to jump at the first sight of Blue Sunride. A fan in the making for the celebrity in the making. 😛 Write more fool.

  2. sunride.. permalink*
    September 11, 2012 22:28

    Sometimes, I shud just laugh it off, no?

  3. allshrink permalink
    September 25, 2012 22:29

    ha ha yes …laugh it off fool

  4. sunride.. permalink*
    October 8, 2012 09:30

    Join in the hilarity… allshrink ….

  5. allshrink permalink
    November 22, 2012 00:10

    hey u stop blogging ???….but you seemed to be on such a good roll……pra-la-ya…howz that for the next blog

  6. allshrink permalink
    February 22, 2013 03:10

    hey u stop blogging ???….but you seemed to be on such a good roll……having kids??? huh!! huh!

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